I Keep My Exoskeletons to Myself audiobook cover - A queer widow raises a sharp, fearless kid under a surveillance state that literally marks people with extra shadows. What begins as raw grief becomes defiance, tender love, and a risky hope for a different future.

I Keep My Exoskeletons to Myself

A queer widow raises a sharp, fearless kid under a surveillance state that literally marks people with extra shadows. What begins as raw grief becomes defiance, tender love, and a risky hope for a different future.

Marisa Crane

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Description

In a near-future America obsessed with punishment, an extra shadow is strapped to anyone deemed guilty—an open-air mark meant to shame you forever. Kris’s wife, Beau, dies in childbirth, and their newborn daughter is immediately assigned a second shadow. Under cameras in every room, Kris stumbles through sleepless nights, impossible rules, and a grief that feels like another body in the bed. She finds unexpected kinship with a neighbor, a halting truce with her estranged father, and eventually a fierce, complicated love with Michelle, a former Department insider. As the kid—funny, stubborn, and musically gifted—grows into her own firebrand spirit, the family learns the cost of survival and the power of choosing each other. This is a story about loss that widens into rebellion, about shame that loosens into tenderness, and about building a family that refuses to look away.

Who Should Listen

  • Listeners who love literary dystopias rooted in intimate, everyday lives
  • Queer readers seeking a fierce, tender portrait of chosen family and grief
  • Fans of stories about resistance, motherhood, and growing up under surveillance
  • Book clubs ready to talk about punishment, forgiveness, and how communities form
  • Anyone who needs a reminder that love can be both messy and brave

About the Authors

Marisa Crane is a writer, basketball player, and unabashed sweatpants enthusiast. Their work has appeared in Joyland, TriQuarterly, Passages North, The Florida Review, Catapult, Literary Hub, The Rumpus, and more. A Tin House and Bread Loaf alum, they live in San Diego with their wife and child. I Keep My Exoskeletons to Myself is their debut novel.